Yesterday was such a fun night! As the night ticks away, the party was getting hotter and hotter… wild and wilder! From the grand opening of the Upper East boutique, a meeting with Michel Adam (president and founder of FTV) and goes on till dawn with the hot-slam-banging F Party! Well then, looking forward to another F-event in the near future ;)

Damn lucky didn’t get drunk. But almost. lol. 3 glasses of wine are still fine. but champagnes and johnny walker black after that… It just never gets any better than that! *Man, never wanted to do it again… Got back home and straight to bed and play like dead. Didn’t wake up fully til bout 2pm. Been catching bad feelings also.. Anyways, hope everything’s gonna be fine! All my friends, take good care! Cheers!

It hurts. Love hurts. The weirdest thing happened this morning was I woke up with tears in my eyes, rolling down my cheek. I knew I must have been dreaming of you again. Love is really like a quicksand; the deeper you fall in it, the harder it is to get out. If I never met you, I wouldn’t like you. If I didn’t like you, I wouldn’t love you. If I didn’t love you, I wouldn’t miss you…but I do. I miss you so much… At first, I never wanted to say goodbye because I still wanted to try. I never wanted to give up because I feel that we can still take it. And I never say that I no longer love you because I know that I still can’t let you go out of my heart. Baby, I need you so much closer…

As I close my eyes, I can feel everything. Our love that was once beautiful, a deep affection that have sealed our hearts together forever. I can’t hold my tears any longer as I recall our memories together. It hurts so much like a blade piercing through my soul. Alone I’m trapped in sorrow without you beside me. Tears kept flowing down my cheek. I try to feel that you’re right beside me, comforting me. But all I can do is dream of you more and more…

Oceans apart, day after day and I slowly go insane. I hear your voice on the line but it doesn’t stop the pain. If I see you next to never, how can we say forever? Wherever you go, whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you. Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks, I will be right here waiting for you. I took for granted all the times that I thought would last somehow. I hear the laughter, I taste the tears but I can’t get near you now. Can’t you see it baby, you’ve got me going crazy. I wonder how we can survive this romance. But in the end, if I’m with you, I’ll take the chance.

If you knew you could open a door to anywhere, where would you want to go love? … Let’s find some beautiful place to get lost.

1. I love when my heart smiles, but the best of all, it smiles because of you.

Had a lovey-dovey day today. lol. Actually, I had a rest today. Well at least a part of the day. Lassie was busy doing her stuff and we just sort of ease it out a little. Hmm, finished the footage today! yay! rendering the film to an HD takes mega-load of time.. gosh. Anyways, I was twiddling again with my stuffs while waiting for the film to finish processing and also getting myself easy on bed. Here’s some images…

Phew, now then. It’s midnight already. I probably go to sleep again haha. I still feel tired since I’ve not been getting enough rest for the past couple of weeks. Besides, tomorrow I’m meeting some friends on the afternoon. Going to have lunch with John then goes on with Fifi and I’m meeting up with Nadya afterwards. And what’s more tomorrow my assistants and crews are planning on to get together, relax once in a while. We’re planning to go to the movies watch New Moon up in the premiere I guess. Still don’t know if the full crew can all come tomorrow. Still waiting for my DOP to text me and also Nadya’s.. Well, we’ll see what happens.. big day tomorrow (definitely :D Ciao!

Now, as I recall on my research from time to time, I had saved this copy of a little story of Love and Time. I forgot where the source is but I want to share this with you all. It’s very nice and very inspirational, I hope you will like it.

Love and Time

Once Upon a time there is an island where all the feelings lived : Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge and all the others including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all prepared their boats and left. Love is the only one who stayed.

Love wanted to persevere until the last moment. When the island is almost sinking. Love decided to ask for help. Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, “Richness, can you take me with you?” Richness answered, “No, I can’t. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you”.

Love decided to ask vanity who was also passing by in the beautiful vessel, “Vanity, please help me!” “I can’t help you Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat,” Vanity answered.


Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, “Sadness, let me go with you.” “Oh…Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!”

Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!

Suddenly there was a voice, “Come Love, I will take you.” It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask the elder her name. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way.


Love, realizing how much he owed the elder asked Knowledge, another elder, “Who helped me?” “It was Time” Knowledge replied.

Time? Asked Love. But why did Time helped me? Knowledge smiled with deep Wisdom and answered, “because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is.”

I hope this touched your heart.


It’s time for a classic inspiration! I’m still with the film editor right now. Feels that siiting have been forever! LOL Well, I got bored and started to open up some pics and see what I can twidle with. Oh, but before that – turned on my iTunes and played one of the classic melodies…Jose Mari Chan’s Beautiful Girl….. Oh man, I love that song. If you never heard it before, you should listen to it! Well, here’s the tunes….

 

Beautiful girl, whenever you are
I knew when I saw you, you had opened the door
I knew that I’d love again after a long, long while
I’d love again

you said ‘hello’ and I turned to go
but something in your eyes left my heart beating so
I just knew that I’d love again after a long, long while
I’d love again

It was destiny’s game, for when love finally came on
I rushed in line only to fine that you were gone
wherever you are i fear that i might
have lost you forever, like a song in the night
now that I’ve loved again, after a long, long while
I’ve loved again

beautiful girl, I’ll search on for you
till all of your loveliness in my arms come true
you’ve made me in love again, after a long, long while
in love again
and I’m glad that is you…
hmmmmm… beautiful girl..

One of the chapters on my Scattered Love book; I gotta say that it was one of my favorite songs ever and has been one of my inspiration in doing this “Scattered Love” project. I remembered one time when this song was just released, I would see them in MTV and Channel V. I would sing them with passion and I had kept it in ‘repeat one’ mode on my iTunes. :D lol Definitely a sad song indeed :( . Who could ever imagine not able to wake up in the morning, leaving the one you love so much forever without telling her? It kept me thinking whether the love I gave her in this world is enough. Leaving her alone so suddenly, I wonder whether the love I gave her in the past is gonna be enough to last if tomorrow never comes :’(… I hope this will never happen with me :) . So, I hope, for you lovers out there, tell your lovers that you love them. Share with them the joy and sorrow for it is the true meaning of love. Tell them anything that you’re thinking of, before the day comes when you’re all too late…

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She’s lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way
To show her every day
That she’s my only one
If my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

‘Cause I’ve lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there’s no second chance
To tell her how I feel
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you’re thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

My love is waiting for me… I was listening to Brooke Fraser’s song called “Love Is Waiting” while I’m touching up some of my photos in the darkroom. And still got some more films I got to process on Tuesday. But the negatives looks great today! So happy! Well, today’s been big. Well, 2 days I should say. Haven’t been asleep yet; editing videos, photos and besides the Sangaraja of Cambodia is still here! So basically I still got events to do too. And meanwhile I’m having this Shattered Love project currently going on. So my schedule’s quite hectic for the next few weeks. Although, Tuesday I plan to meet up some friends up at the city. Damn, I missed my friends! Been way too long since I met them back like months ago… Well anyways, here’s Brooke Fraser’s ‘Love is Waiting’…

“Love Is Waiting”

In the autumn on the ground,
between the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through
I watch as lovers pass me by
Walking stories – whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love
Pondering you
I’ll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell
When it’s time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

[CHORUS:]
I’ll be waiting for you baby
I’ll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we’re ready, til it’s right
Love is waiting

It’s my caution not the cold
there’s no other hand that i would rather hold
the climate changes, I’m singing for the strangers about you
don’t keep time, slow the pace
Honey hold on if you can
the bets are getting surer now that you’re my man

[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE:]
I could write a million songs about the way you say my name
I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again
and like I can’t force the sun to rise or hasten summer’s start,
neither should I rush my way into your heart

There are there is or is not a way things are. The color of the heart; the tint of the soul; the way it felt to be a couple. From the growing touches of love to the sun burning lechery, sometimes love is yellow; sometimes it’s red, however in the long run it can be gray. But what color it may be in memory, it depends on the day.

I’m not going to illustrate our story the way it’s written. I’m going to visualize them the way I remember it. This is the shattered love.

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That was the short prologue for my latest project “The Shattered Love”, a story of love and heartbreak. The production was a full 2 days shoot held up in a private house. I first thought that 2 days wouldn’t be enough. I was really afraid that we couldn’t finish them since its raining everyday. But lucky for us it didn’t rain on the 2nd day. Well the production was fun. Everyone had a good time despite the fact that we all get super tired and less sleep. Right now, my back still hurts. Feels like that my back bones got broken. But one more good rest and a masseuse would do. lol.

Well, during the production I got little time making some beauty pics, but I made some. I couldn’t upload the works of the project cos its still under radar of supervision. So here you go… I show you one of the beauty shots I took on the last night of our production… Hope you all like it! Cheerss!

These are the pictures that kept me busy for about 1 whole year. A project that was started way back in 2008 and had just ended on October 2009. Yes there are 111 different themes to this couple’s wedding portraits. This is the reason I haven’t been able to get in touch with a lot of people; haven’t been able to talk much online for a year. Preparing for the shoots, prints and then finally preparing for the showcase…. But finally, as I promised before, here are the pictures I took of the newlyweds: Michelle Arifin Poedji and Stevanus Andre Sugianto. Enjoy!

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MA_02

AM_03

Batik 1

Cowboy 3

Cowboy 4

Farmer 1

Farmer 4

12 Meter Black Rose Dress 01

12 Meter Black Rose Dress 02

12 Meter Black Rose Dress 03

12 Meter Black Rose Dress 04

Harley Davidson 1

Matrix 2

Matrix 4

Wedding 5

Wedding 8

Wedding 9

Peacock & Pieta 1

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CAST & CREW

Director and Photographer: Eric Chang
Producer: Poedji Haripin & Linggar Sari Ibrahim
Executive Producer: Andre Sugianto
Production Designer: Chang Wei Ming
Project Officer: Marvyn Lima
Film Editor: Dayana Chis & Maryadi Daffa
Sound Director: Andreas L
Sound Editor: Chika Phim
Illustrations: Lesley Lynn Scarlet
Pictorial Painter: Simona Chis
Graphic Artist: Michelle Likhtcyn
Moodboard Artist: Sienna Amber
Properties Designer: Cynthia de Melo
Costume Designs: Eric Chang, Sebastian Gunawan, Wibowo Point
Styling: Edwin & Michael Schetz
Make-up Designer: Derry
Key Make-up and Stylist: Edwin DT
2nd Make-up: Husein Jr.
3rd Make-up: House of Lea
Location Manager: Stephen Tan
Assistant Location Manager: Agnes Magdalena Sutanto
First Assistant Director: Adhi Wibowo
Second Assistant Director: Catur Haji Prayitno
Third Assistant Director: Nur Ichsan
Camera Operator: Maryadi Daffa, Imam Subandi & Dwi
Transportation Coordinator: Nur Yaman
Transportation Captain: Bambang Joko Wasono
Transportation Co-Captain: Lukman
Drivers: Guntur Wiyono, Purwanto, Nanang, Supri
12 Metre Black Rose Dress Tailors: Rozaq and Team
Caterings: Oba Japanese Cuisine
Craft Services by ProjectArt Plus

Michelle Poedji 01

The Wedding 01

The Wedding 02

The Wedding 03

The Wedding 04

The Wedding 05

The Wedding 06

The Wedding 07

The Wedding 08

The Wedding 09

Mom & Daughter

The Couple & Parent

Mom & Dad

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BTS01

BTS02

The Newlyweds & Me

The Newlyweds with the Wedding Cake

The Gran Stand

Wedding of Michelle Arifin Poedji & Stevanus Andre Sugianto

MichelleAndre Invitation

MICHELLEANDRE
Memoirs of a Couple

exhibiting over 300 pictures of a 1 year pre-wedding photo production, the first in the world; showcasing 111 different themes of the couple’s portraits

the showcases are exhibited exclusively at the Shangri-La Hotel Ballrooms and the Empire Palace, Surabaya on October 10-11, 2009 | 18:00 – finish

INVITATIONS ONLY